right now I'm reading this awesome book by Courtney Joseph called Women Living Well, it's so well written and since she's a mom and goes through a lot of the same struggles I do, I really feel like I connect with her! I hope it continues to be a good book (I don't doubt it though!) I feel a little heavy right now, I've been sick lately and been trying to rest and I just feel like such a bad parent, I've let everything slip, devotions and skyler time and gym time, it wasn't even that bad! it's like I take any excuse I can and run with it and allow myself to be the worst that I can possibly be. great. I've had a word study approach to Bible study pop up all over my life and I just now decided that I should do one on selfishness or something, I'm tired of not being the person I should be for God, and more than that, I'm tired of not drawing close to God, I can feel he's not as near and I yearn for the nearness, but the pull of laziness and self indulgence just comes roaring to life, I need to deny myself, it's the best way!

back again

I wanted to update because I want to get back to journaling, purely for my own purposes and enjoyment, but bc of some things I've been going through, I thought this might be a good way to share my ordeals with friends and family and people going through similar things without having to add anyone I don't know on Facebook. well, more of that to come later! for now I want to sleep :)