what to do

i need a magic 8 ball. not just one of the toy ones, like a real one that will just tell me what to do when i shake it. wouldn't that be nice?? i think the only thing i know to do at this point is to lean on  God, i may not have all the answers and i may not know what to do, all i can do it take things one day at a time and make sure that my relationship with God is on track and that i'm doing what's best for that. jack refuses to go to one sunday school and i refuse to go to the other, now we're at an impasse and i just don't know what to do. i know what i want to do, i would love to get away for a few weeks and just have some time to reconnect with God and with myself, i feel like he hates me and i just don't know what to do about it. life stinks right now, i am closer to God than i normally am, maybe this is just a trial to make me stronger, so i should just grow closer to God and let jack take care of himself for a bit.